Okay unbeknownst to many of you, I have a guinea pig. His name is Wilbert and he's black white with one red eye and one black eye. He also has a little mohawk which is incredibly adorable... He kinda looks like this but real and with a mohawk [link]

But we've had him for like... three years and he's getting kinda old and sick. Today (actually a few minutes ago) my mom walked up to me and told me he doesn't have much longer. She knows because this morning, while me and Sarah we're at school, he was so weak he couldn't stand, but he was trying so hard and he was in so much pain that my mom almost cried (despite the fact I've made her cry)

It's mostly depressing considering that today had been so awesome and then it ended in such sadness. Today was so awesome. Exept for in History... Bobby started crying and I didn't know how to help him... Bu then at lunch, our entire table (including Bobby) was cracking up at the stupidest things (like turkey breast) and I laughed so hard, I cried and I couldn't breath. The day was pretty much a breeze after that... well... except for when Mr. Rieley yelled at me and Bobby and made us seperate (DX)

But my guinea pig is deying and I completely blame aids... Yup... Aids killed my guinea pig and raped my gold fish (I don't actually have a gold fish) It's been quite a depressing month....

Do you remeber when I talked about Joe? I still have the journal up... Well I said that I was fond of him but no one oculd replace Sean... Well... I've proved that wrong. Me and Sean, we we're great at first. But, I mean, I just couldn't have a full conversation with him. I would tell my mom to say I'm sleeping whenever he called cause I was always to bored to talk to him (that was meaner than it sounded in my head) We're still friends. He moved but we still talk on myspace and stuff. Anyway! Back to Joe... I was looking up another friend named Joe on myspace and long be hold guess who I find from Texas... Joe *enter last name here* I cried when I found that. I cried all night. It wasn't until I took on the reallity that he was actually gone, that I realized just how much I loved him. I really miss him... I'm with Bobby and he's told me about a girl he used to like (and still likes) and how she moved then it broke her heart when she found out he had a Girlfriend... I didn't like that. It made me think that he regrets asking me out... Well... if he can tell me about a girl he still loves... I can tell him about a guy I still love too... Right?


Rose 8-----@